Confessions, I’ve never been good at these. But for the past 5 months now I have been depressed mostly because of a mistake I made that fucked my life all up. Now after 5 months I would think I would be over it but that’s just not the case. From July 29th till around the third of the year I handled my depression like any reasonable person would. I turned to drugs, alcohol, and non-stop partying. Not the smartest thing in the world to do and I realize that now. Now for the past 2 weeks I’ve stopped most of that. I just found a job after 3 months of not having one, I’m moving out, and I dropped out of college. I just couldn’t do it anymore the farther I am from my past the better I am and if that means no school then I’m out. You see for the past few weeks I thought I was over everything, but for the past 3 days I’ve realized I’m nowhere near that. See the reason I haven’t moved on is because I’m scared that I’ll do what I did again and that’s something that I can’t afford to do. I need a lot of help and don’t know what I should do because I don’t want to tell the story. If anyone out there has some advice I can use/have please share.
